On Repentance and Offerings

I see our Mother weeping and our Father so angry and I wish I could offer more to wipe her tears and stay His Hand.

On May 1, driving to UW for Michael’s appt and ultimate ER/Hospital stay/Brain infection/beg. of the end, I was toying with offering to God our situation moving forward for the conversion of souls and mercy for our world. Toying, is the key word. But God ran with that reluctant desire and took us up on it. If it was possible, things got much harder. And I said, “God, why?” And He said, “tell people to stop sinning so much.”

God is abundant mercy. Divine Mercy. But only if we ask and repent. If we don’t then Divine Justice must be fulfilled. We are seeing this Justice being played out – God handing us over to the idols we worship, slavery is coming, repentance with tears for our bread is the only thing that will stay His Hand or ultimately deliver. It’s His way: we remove ourselves from Him and worship something else, He says “fine, see how you really do without Me” and we see and are reduced to the nothingness we truly are.

But I long for His mercy. I weep for it. I offer my very life and my husband and everything I have for it.

There are days when I don’t want to suffer anymore and then someone will pop into my head; often one of you. And Jesus asks, “will you offer it for them?” For their salvation?” And I can’t deny God anything because He is so Good and the Way is the Cross and I say, “yes.” And my life, each day, becomes (hopefully) less about me and more about loving Him, making Him proud, making Michael proud, and leading my children (and whoever else I can) to heaven.

For, “I rejoice in what I am suffering for you, and I fill up in my flesh what is still lacking in regards to Christ’s afflictions, for the sake of His body, which is the church.” Col 1:24

If Michael’s sufferings and those of myself and our children can be offered in reparation for *all* the damage our world has caused Our Lord, I would gladly give more. But I know I am but one and a collective repentance is truly needed. Will you join me, in sackcloth and ashes and repentance and offerings, in giving your very self into the loving and merciful Hands of Our Father?

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2 Comments

  1. Christen D on November 2, 2021 at 3:42 am

    So very beautiful, articulate, and bravely sincere. I hope you create more columns and maybe podcasts that cover repentance and mortification. Thank you for sharing your raw heart in all this.

    • Kristine on November 22, 2021 at 7:10 pm

      Thank you for your kind words. And I would love to cover those topics in future writings and reflections. Blessings, Kristine

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