Joan Up!

{repost from 10/2021}

On Wednesday we spent the day at the pumpkin patch. Dude, I think the last time we were there was when Lourdes was a baby, so we were long overdue for pumpkin patching.

But in light of my last couple posts (save the one about the book study) I wanted to take you through the way my mind and perhaps grace works in reaction to trials and challenges of life.. So let’s dive in, shall we??

The other night I was overcome with anger and sadness. Harmed by the limitations of the Latin Mass (and therefore fewer places in the country I can choose to live should I want to move), and harmed by many bishops allowing policy that is causing the destruction of life (abortion) and livelihoods (mandates), I was broken. For myself, for you, for others.

And then the day after was spent in resignation. “This is the will of God in this time,” I said. For many reasons. This is what He asks us to endure. I willingly submit.

And then after anger and resignation comes the part I actually like.


The emotions and submission forge together to form a fire that spurs me on to things I wouldn’t do otherwise. Things I wouldn’t think or say otherwise. And my sword gets sharper, my resolve firms, and I come out of the trenches of the last mortar shell ready to face even bigger bombs.

I am a woman, yes. A woman with all her womanly things. But as a woman in Christ, I am also a solider. No regular front lines for me thankyouverymuch but front lines for Christ…Bring it. Knock me down, check. Wound me, been there done that. But the great physician heals, the great King leads me on to bigger battles.

What’s the phrase? Joan Up? Yes, baby, Joan Up…

And I Joan Up by refining my weapons of battle, my biggest weapon being forgiveness.

Forgiving those bishops. Offering prayers for their conversion, for the conversion of all who harm me. More on forgiveness later, but it’s the most powerful weapon we have. Heaping burning coals, baby. Heaping burning coals.

So from sadness to resignation or courage, I’m Joaning Up and moving forward with strength and peace, knowing the battle is already won. I just need to stay on the right side of it.

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  1. Kirsten on November 24, 2021 at 2:15 am

    You are a warrior.

  2. J on December 17, 2021 at 3:42 pm

    ok your odd. joan up.. ummmm DUM.

    • Kristine on December 17, 2021 at 8:06 pm

      Decorum and charity in words is basic human decency, especially towards a widow. Thank you.

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