Faith Musings

The widow’s life

November 22, 2021 |

{repost from 5/2021} Fire fire fire fire fire. This is life. This is the widow’s life. This is the Christian life. Burning, consuming, destroying, renewing, refining. I need to start bringing a journal to Mass. The fire of the Holy Ghost pouring flames upon my mind and heart, consuming my thoughts in between the Word, making my…

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A beautiful morning

November 22, 2021 |

{repost from 5/2021} “O the depth of the riches of the wisdom and of the knowledge of God! How incomprehensible are His judgments, and how unsearchable His ways! For who hath known the mind of the Lord Or who hath been His counsellor? Or who hath first given to Him, and recompense shall be made Him? For…

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The fragility of life

November 22, 2021 |

{repost from 4/2021} When Michael had his seizure and we were awaiting CT results, I was guaranteed certain that it was from stress. There was no other conceivable explanation, no thought of any other origin. And then it was a softball sized tumor, actually, and my world shattered into a million pieces. The fragility of life staring…

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8 months

November 22, 2021 |

{repost from 4/2021} Twice now I have almost picked up my phone to call him. Once was last week, when I got to Idaho to chill with my bestie. I set my suitcase down and thought, “I need to give him a ring to tell him about my flight!” And the other was yesterday, walking into our…

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My testimony is not in my words

November 22, 2021 |

{repost from 4/2021} I keep wanting to write to tell you things. To tell you of what I have discovered and learned, to relay the ways of purification and peace. To walk you through our lives with the words I can muster and tell you of it all. But how do you capture all that is this…

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A family resurrecting

November 22, 2021 |

{repost from 3/2021} Praise be Jesus Christ when He allows you to enter in to His Passion. Praise be! Praise be when He kisses you with His nails and the scandal and the humiliations! Praise be in His holy silence. Praise be in the power that is all things contradictory to the world. When He chooses you…

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Memento Mori

November 22, 2021 |

{repost from 2/2021} Remember, man + that thou art dust, and unto dust you shall return. The first year I am delighted for Lent. Standing over the kitchen sink, where most of God’s whispers reach my heart, I felt a twinge of excitement last night at the days to come. I guess when your days and life…

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The greater the resurrection

November 22, 2021 |

{repost from 2/2021} I know I talk a lot about suffering and the darkness of life (cause that’s just the state of life I’m in) but there’s also an intentionality to bringing these truths to the light. The first is this: the deeper the suffering, the greater the resurrection. Nothing myself or my family has endured is…

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Why suffering?

November 22, 2021 |

{repost from 1/6/2021} There have been a handful of revelations God has ministered to me over the course of these past few months. One of them is part of “the answer” to why He allows suffering. To why He lets those who love Him so much, those who try to remain faithful and in the trenches, to…

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The Veil

November 22, 2021 |

{repost from 12/27/2020} I speak often of the veil – the veil between heaven and earth. When Michael died this veil was lifted in a way I’d never experienced. It first came as a great illumination of conscience. I saw my sins as they really are. Was Michael in purgatory, experiencing the same thing and that’s why…

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