Faith Musings

The greater miracle

November 22, 2021 |

{repost from 9/2021} Jesus, seeing their faith, said to the sick man of the palsy: be of good heart, son, thy sins are forgiven thee. And behold some of the scribes said within themselves: He blasphemeth. And Jesus seeing their thoughts, said: Why do you think evil in your hearts? Whether is easier, to say, Thy sins…

Read More

Last year

November 22, 2021 |

{repost from 8/10/2021} Last year. He was slipping more each day. Waking at night, agitated. Wanting to go somewhere. More time than normal spent by his bedside. Kids reading books and playing Nintendo, myself snuggling under the big arms I fit so well under. Squeezing next to him in the hospital bed, crawling in there at night…

Read More

On needing people

November 22, 2021 |

{repost from 8/2021} So, I am alone however I do very little on my own. And having a tribe around me has been a great means of growth in healing, discerning, and forging through this journey of life. I just got off a call with my (Catholic) therapist, right before my Mexico City pilgrimage zoom call. I…

Read More

Returning love for love

November 22, 2021 |

{repost from 7/2021} Yesterday was kind of like all the perfect things rolled up in a pretty little bow. I mean, I got to go to Mass, confession, have a Holy Hour, pray both my Rosary and Divine Mercy Chaplet, walk the dog by the water, hang with my bestie drinking sparkling rose, hit up sushi, trampoline…

Read More

Let God be God

November 22, 2021 |

{repost from 7/2021} “In this world you will have much trouble but take heart, I have overcome the world!” John 16:33 When you lose your husband, everything else seems easy. When you have stared death and evil in the eyes, you know how to face it. You know how powerless and weak it actually is. You know…

Read More

Squeezing life out of life

November 22, 2021 |

{repost from 7/2021} I have a tattoo that says, “memento mori, memento vivere.” Remember death. Remember to live. Life is short and blah blah blah. Well let me tell you, LIFE IS SHORT. “The days of our years in them are threescore and ten years. But if in the strong they be fourscore years: and what is…

Read More

JOMO

November 22, 2021 |

{repost from 7/2021} In the middle of my ultra-running days we had a phrase we loved throw around. FOMO. (fear of missing out) When a group of us went to go run 20 or 30 or 50 miles somewhere (usually involving mountains and coffee and seriously fun girl time) the person or people back home would text,…

Read More

Living the cross

November 22, 2021 |

{repost from 6/2021} As I was driving home from my therapist’s office this morning, eyes red from the tears I finally let shed over new things I’m starting to grieve, I passed by a funeral home. I saw a minivan pull into the parking lot and the van looked eerily familiar and then I saw it back…

Read More

The small and the beautiful

November 22, 2021 |

{repost from 6/2021} Sure life is big and heavy but it’s also small and beautiful. This liturgical rhythm of fasting and feasting, dying and rising. Woven into each one of us. I’ve learned that the small and beautiful is something to cherish. I see those moments more clearly now. Day by day, the letting go and detaching…

Read More

I see you

November 22, 2021 |

{repost from 6/2021} My heart comes alive in the evening. As the day is dimming, she is awakening. Her little heart thoughts swirling and searching for a place to land. There is no other half here to land on and no other place here to land on, other than her head which is already too full. So…

Read More