Facing Grief

Giving Thanks…for the oddest things

November 24, 2021 |

In the moments after Michael died I remember laying in bed next to his body and, while my heart was breaking in two, I remember thinking that someday I would praise God for our sufferings and his death. If not in this life, then in the next. For I knew His ways are not my ways. Yes,…

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Welcome!

November 22, 2021 |

Welcome, dear friends new and old! My little corner of the internet is finally up and running! My little space to let my fingers pour out what is skimming my heart. And I usually only share the skimming stuff because the underneath is reserved for my memoirs to the Lord but that’s OK. Because we get deep…

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Being made a partaker

November 22, 2021 |

“Brethren, we cease not to pray for you, and to beg that you may be filled with the knowledge of the will of God, in all wisdom and understanding, that you may walk worthy of God, in all things pleasing, being fruitful in every good work, and increasing in the knowledge of God; strengthened will all might…

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Widow things

November 22, 2021 |

{repost from 10/2021} Let’s talk widow things. As a Catholic, there is much black and white. But as a widow, it’s pretty much all gray. Other than moralities (that apply to all states of life), very little has a right and wrong when it comes to widowhood. And I want to break the taboos of some topics…

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On this Friday evening

November 22, 2021 |

{repost from 10/2021} I know it’s Friday evening but the evening is when I like to write. So, hopefully everyone else is out living it up (or in living it up) and I’m the only one on these little squares. But if I wait until the morning nothing I want to say makes sense anymore so I’ve…

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The greater miracle

November 22, 2021 |

{repost from 9/2021} Jesus, seeing their faith, said to the sick man of the palsy: be of good heart, son, thy sins are forgiven thee. And behold some of the scribes said within themselves: He blasphemeth. And Jesus seeing their thoughts, said: Why do you think evil in your hearts? Whether is easier, to say, Thy sins…

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One year

November 22, 2021 |

August 20, 2021. One year. Michael, we are missing you and longing for you. We are remembering you. We made your earthly home beautiful with flowers and your headstone finally arrived and now we have a place to honor you properly. We honor you with moving forward each day, we honor you by making your death not…

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Dancing among the flames

November 22, 2021 |

{repost from 8/19/2021} I need to write tonight, I hope that’s OK. And I want to share this picture. It’s a picture I’ve been wanting to share for many months. And also a picture I thought about always keeping private. So here we are. Please hold this moment gently. It is a picture that sums up our…

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Last year

November 22, 2021 |

{repost from 8/10/2021} Last year. He was slipping more each day. Waking at night, agitated. Wanting to go somewhere. More time than normal spent by his bedside. Kids reading books and playing Nintendo, myself snuggling under the big arms I fit so well under. Squeezing next to him in the hospital bed, crawling in there at night…

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Happy Anniversary, my love

November 22, 2021 |

{repost from 8/4/2021} Agape. Mirror of the divine love. Forged through fire. Gold. Did you know gold is heated to the point of being melted and lost and just at the right moment is pulled out of the fire? And when the metalsmith can see his face reflecting off the surface he knows it’s done? Gold is…

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