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Welcome, dear friends new and old! My little corner of the internet is finally up and running! My little space to let my fingers pour out what is skimming my heart. And I usually only share the skimming stuff because the underneath is reserved for my memoirs to the Lord but that’s OK. Because we…

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Joan Up!

{repost from 10/2021} On Wednesday we spent the day at the pumpkin patch. Dude, I think the last time we were there was when Lourdes was a baby, so we were long overdue for pumpkin patching. But in light of my last couple posts (save the one about the book study) I wanted to take…

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Overnight

{repost from 9/2021} Overnight. That’s how quickly things changed. Our own September 11 occurring on Friday the 13th. 9:29 our life was normal. 9:30 everything collapsed. The walls of brain tumors closing in. Walls we never knew were built around us. Walls that crushed his body. Walls that kept the adopted baby out. Walls that…

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Returning love for love

{repost from 7/2021} Yesterday was kind of like all the perfect things rolled up in a pretty little bow. I mean, I got to go to Mass, confession, have a Holy Hour, pray both my Rosary and Divine Mercy Chaplet, walk the dog by the water, hang with my bestie drinking sparkling rose, hit up…

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The fragility of life

{repost from 4/2021} When Michael had his seizure and we were awaiting CT results, I was guaranteed certain that it was from stress. There was no other conceivable explanation, no thought of any other origin. And then it was a softball sized tumor, actually, and my world shattered into a million pieces. The fragility of…

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Preparation for what we are to endure

{repost from 1/2021} Before Michael was diagnosed I thought we were entering a time of resurrection for our family. Years of ominous suffering, things only a few know. Every ounce of our lives tested against the backdrop of sin and warfare, chastisement and mercy. Yet, we persisted and the dawn was breaking forth on the…

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Embracing the beautiful mess

{repost from 1/2021} This morning I was praying and I thought of Michael (like I always do) and I thought of his birth and his death and then it hit me: If there is any person who embodies the notion we should protect life from conception to natural death it would be my late husband.…

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Facing the world as it is

{repost from 1/2021} Imaging you are facing the world as it is…and now imagine you are facing the world as it is while facing your past as it was: the loss of so much, most especially that of your spouse and dad to your babies. And yet in this great and almost crushing weight of…

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On Repentance and Offerings

I see our Mother weeping and our Father so angry and I wish I could offer more to wipe her tears and stay His Hand. On May 1, driving to UW for Michael’s appt and ultimate ER/Hospital stay/Brain infection/beg. of the end, I was toying with offering to God our situation moving forward for the…

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